2026/005: The Debutante — Jon Ronson
Jan. 9th, 2026 09:37 amThis is the story of a Tulsa debutante who, as a result of a series of unlikely and often very bad life choices she made in the ‘90s, found herself in the midst of one of the most terrible crimes ever to take place in America. [opening line]
I don't think this really counts as a book: it's more of a podcast, complete with hooks and a 'special bonus episode'.
Jon Ronson explores the history of Carol Howe, adopted at birth by a wealthy family in Tulsa. She was a debutante, but a rebellious one, and became part of a white supremacist group (plus swastika tattoo, 'Dial-a-Racist' phone line etc). She was involved with a white supremacist Christian cult in Oklahoma with ties to Timothy McVeigh, the Oklahoma Bomber. Then, apparently, she decided to become an informant for the ATF (Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco and Firearms) and kept a detailed diary of events. The ATF claim she was 'deactivated' because of mental instability. Howe claimed she warned the ATF about the cult's plans to bomb a major target, but was ignored.
Ronson didn't manage to track down Howe, but he did -- in the 'special bonus episode' -- discover what happened to her: dead in a house fire in January 2025, after years of paranoid behaviour. An interesting investigation, but I would have preferred a straightforward narrative to the 'tune in for our next instalment' ambience of a podcast.
Media and Power: 01 Unit 1: Construction of Meaning: Picture Composition
Jan. 9th, 2026 05:17 pmThe chapter: Construction of Meaning: Picture Composition.
It was really interesting reading this as someone who has read lots of art theory for the purposes of being better at art, and picked up some more formal theory via vague osmosis from my artsy parents and their books, but not generally thought about composition very deeply from a media analysis angle.
( Read more... )
Media and Power: Masterlist
Jan. 9th, 2026 05:07 pm( Read more... )
New Worlds: Memento Mori
Jan. 9th, 2026 09:01 amThere's a grim reason for this, which is that death was far more of a looming threat for historical people than it is for us. Obviously it's true now, as it was then, that everybody eventually dies; the difference is that the average person today can expect to enjoy decades of life first. But life expectancies in the past were much lower -- which is not the same thing as saying that most adults died by the age of thirty! The reason average life expectancy was so much lower is that the odds of surviving your first few years were horrifyingly low. Childhood diseases like the measles tended to kill almost half of all children born before they reached the age of ten.
Which means that nearly every family in existence, rich as well as poor, suffered the repeated grief of seeing life cut short before it really had a chance to start. Then, for those who made it to adulthood, men often had a meaningful chance of dying in war, and women faced the recurrent risk of dying in childbirth. On top of all that, there's the experience of death: people were more likely to die at home, rather than off in some hospital, and ordinary people had the task of caring for them in their final hours and preparing their bodies for funerary rites afterwards. They saw and touched and smelled the effects of death, in a way that most of us today do not.
One of the ways to cope with this is to look death squarely in the eye, rather than flinching away. The Latin phrase memento mori, an exhortation to remember that you must inevitably die, has come to signify all kinds of cultural traditions intended to remind people of the end. Our modern Halloween skeletons and ghosts used to have that function, even if few of us think of them that way anymore; let's take a look at some other approaches.
A few memento mori traditions are things you do rather than objects in your life. Buddhism, for example, has traditions of "foulness meditation," in which a person is encouraged to contemplate topics like disease and decay -- sometimes in cemeteries or the presence of corpses. After all, Buddhism tells us the nature of the world is impermanence, and what illustrates that more vividly than death? Islamic scriptures likewise exhort believers to think about death, and some Sufis make a habit of visiting graveyards for that purpose. I'm also reminded of a fictional practice, which I think might be based on something in the real world, though I can't place it: in Geraldine Harris' Seven Citadels quartet of novels, the Queen of Seld holds banquets in what will eventually be her tomb.
Speaking of banqueting, the Romans had a rich tradition of memento mori (as you might expect, given that we got the phrase from their language). In the early imperial period, it was fashionable to dine in rooms frescoed with images of skeletons and drink from cups decorated with skulls. The message, though, was far from Buddhism's reminder not to become attached to impermanent things: instead it was, as the poet Horace wrote in that same era, carpe diem. Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow you may die. These macabre decorations were meant to heighten the transient pleasures of life.
Other classical thinkers took it in a more Buddhist-style direction, though. Stoic philosophy is full of injunctions to curb the pleasures of life because you and all the people around you are mortal, and there are accounts which claim a Roman general celebrating a triumph was accompanied by someone reminding him that eventually he would die. We find the same sentiment echoed in the Icelandic Hávamál, with its "Cattle die, / kinsmen die, / all men are mortal" -- though that one goes on to praise the immortality of a good reputation.
Christian tradition leaned heavily into this for centuries, because of the theological emphasis on the dangers of sin and of dying unshriven. To have any hope of heaven, a Christian was supposed to live with one eye on the ever-present possibility of death, rather than assuming it must be far off and you'd see it coming, with time to prepare. Memento mori took every shape from tomb decorations (don't forget that many wealthy people were buried inside churches) to clocks (time is inexorably ticking away) to paintings (the genre known as vanitas emphasizes the vanity, i.e. worthlessness, of impermanent things) to jewelry. The devastation of the Black Death undoubtedly bolstered this tradition, as seen in the Danse Macabre artistic motif, where the Grim Reaper summons away people from all walks of life, kings and bishops alongside peasants.
I promised you baked goods, though, didn't I? Malta celebrates the Month of the Dead in November and commemorates the season with ghadam tal-mejtin, "dead men's bones," a type of cookie filled with sweet, spiced almond dough. And in Sweden, there was a nineteenth-century tradition of funerary confectionery, wrapped in paper printed with memento mori images -- though the candies were often meant to be saved instead of eaten, and some manufacturers bulked them out with substances like chalk to cut costs. You could break a tooth trying to bite into one.
We might even count death omens as a type of memento mori. Most of the ones I know about are European, and take forms ranging from spectral voices in the night to black dogs to a double of the person who's about to die -- with a certain amount of ambiguity around whether encountering such a thing causes you to die (perhaps with some way to avert it), or whether it's merely a signal that death is at hand. To these we might add plague omens, which I know of from both Slavic lands and Japan: people or creatures who appear to warn a town that an epidemic is about to sweep through. The Japanese ones usually promise that anyone who hangs up an image of the creature will be protected from disease, which is certainly helpful of them! (And yes, there was a resurgence in that tradition when the Covid-19 pandemic began.)
These days we are more likely to enjoy death imagery as an aesthetic rather than a philosophical practice. Our life expectancy is vastly higher -- in part because we're far more likely to survive childhood -- and thanks to modern medicine, even an ultimately fatal injury or illness stands a higher chance of giving us time to prepare for the end. But notwithstanding the fever dreams of some technophiles, we have yet to defeat death; immortality remains out of reach. Until that changes, mortality will remain an inescapable fact for every human born.

(originally posted at Swan Tower: https://is.gd/JVBlEI)
Webrings!
Jan. 9th, 2026 09:42 amNeocreatives Webring - this one has grown so big (500+ artists) that it now functions as a directory.
Adult Artist Webring - this is MUCH smaller but I'm glad those artists have found a way to connect on a new platform after being kicked out almost everywhere.
Amusing myself.
Jan. 8th, 2026 10:56 pmAlso, since tagging on Tumblr is the new version of fandom icons, I decided on a Pluribus tag: we'll eat you up we love you so.
Daily Happiness
Jan. 8th, 2026 08:35 pm2. The Christmas tree is all down and boxed up, all decorations are boxed up, just a few more lego sets to take apart and then everything will be done. Sad to put everything away, but I am glad we can decorate again now that we have a cat-free space.
3. It is very chilly and windy today. I like having wintery weather that doesn't involve rain.
4. Chloe enjoyed the sunny window this morning. Cats are glad the rain's done, too!

current reading
Jan. 8th, 2026 08:21 pmSince I'm all done with being a pseudo-reviewer, this post occurs before I finish reading Mendenhall's book, deliberately. Instead, here's Kirkus, and an excerpt.
but it's all coming back in a way
Jan. 8th, 2026 10:58 pmThe Pitt: 7 am - 8 am
( spoilers, mostly just incoherent squeeing )
My show is back! I AM EXCITE!!!
*
(no subject)
Jan. 8th, 2026 09:39 pmI also, via means unknown, fucked up something in my ankle on Monday and have been hobbling around ever since. Like, I literally have no clue what I did. Nothing looks discolored and it's only a tiny bit swollen, so ??? But of course, that calf is now achy from walking funny.
Weekend plans are, unfortunately, to basically sit/lay around and heal up.
The Return of the Good News Report for my continued sanity if not yours...
Jan. 8th, 2026 08:03 pmDisclaimer: As in all things, good news is in the eye of the beholder. [I've not been posting a lot of them - because I can't just post a bunch of court cases any longer - I feel like I'm recapping an endless legal ping pong match. It makes me tired. The below, suffice it to say, is NOT a bunch of court cases. There might be a few in there - but not the endless line of legal ping pong, which is frankly depressing.]
I don't know about anyone else? But I could use a little good news?
( 42 good news or relatively good news items' )
US Flight routes
Jan. 8th, 2026 11:27 pmSo, I'm writing a fic where a plane disappears in the US. As in, it drops from all radars for a few minutes and it's presumed down for a few hours. I need to know any plausible flight routes within the US from Boston where this could happen. Any stretches of land where a pilot could make an emergency landing and the plane still be presumed down for like an hour or three is good for me.
snowflake challenge #4
Jan. 9th, 2026 02:56 amAny website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!
Since I'm literally using it right now and I never miss a chance to peddle it, I have to rec MyNoise -- the biggest collection of sound generators on the internet, I'm sure. I've been using the site for a decade, since its collection was much smaller, and I'll never go anywhere else for ambient noise. They've basically got everything -- fireplace, waterfall, cat purr, thunder, storms, all the classics, but you can also get drones of various kinds, white noise and other colours of noise, cafe/office background noise, loads of different soundscapes, and pretty much whatever.
There's one that's just record player hiss -- it's lovely to play alongside music! (Or do what I've done a few times -- open rain and fireplace in separate tabs and then play some solo violin music off Spotify, and voilà, instant 221B Baker Street.)
I've donated a few times, so I have access to all the generators (a single donation gives you full access permanently, so it's worth it!), but even without that, there are SO many good ones. And unlike those 10-hour loops of whatever on youtube, they're customisable -- consisting of several independent sound files, so you can alter volume for each frequency at will, alter playback speed, and set the sliders to "animate", which means you get constant variety. That also makes it much better at blocking out speech. Cannot rec enough!
Drawing Challenge #75 - Romance
Jan. 9th, 2026 02:05 pm
Challenge #75: Romance
It's been a heady, romantic holiday season for some of us in fandom, so the first theme of 2026 is ROMANCE! You can draw characters from a romance, or put characters from any fandom, or no fandom, into a romantic situation. Or you can draw and paint anything connected with romance, whatever that means to you - like an anniversary, gifts, or a romantic memory. Make it as schmaltzy as you like, or as tragic and angsty, and don't forget "enemies to lovers", and other romance tropes! ❤️
The challenge will run through February as well, to cover Valentine's Day.
A round-up post for submissions to this challenge will be done at the end of February.
Admin Post: Community check-in for December 2025
Jan. 9th, 2026 02:32 pm
December and 2025 are over, and we'd love to have you check in and chat with us. How have things been with you this past month? This past year?
Did you sign up for or take part in any fandom activities in December, or have you been working on any personal art projects? Are you currently trying to meet a deadline? Feel free to share upcoming art challenges that have got you excited, any frustrations you've been experiencing, possible goals for the next month, and so on.
Belated Reading Wednesday
Jan. 8th, 2026 08:27 pmI saw a fantastic production of Guys & Dolls (the STC's) over the holidays and now I'm reading the collected short stories of Damon Runyon, which were the basis/inspiration for the 1950 musical. Off to a fun start from the first sentence of the first story; my mental narrator's voice can't decide whether it's an old-timey radio host or in The Godfather:
Only a rank sucker will think of taking two peeks at Dave the Dude's doll, because while Dave may stand for the first peek, figuring it is a mistake, it is a sure thing he will get sored up at the second peek, and Dave the Dude is certainly not a man to have sored up at you.
(This particular story ends with Dave the Dude getting beat up by his girlfriend's boyfriend's wife, by the way.)
Also just started The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin; immediately intrigued and enjoyably bewildered by being flung headfirst into its alien setting.
snowflake challenge #3
Jan. 9th, 2026 01:56 am
Stumbling through the door late again! I'm not gonna lie, this one has been stumping me since it was posted, and it isn't because I don't have a lot of love for fandom, I do. It's just difficult to know where to start!
However: a toast (in Earl Grey, since that's what I'm having atm) to all the people who write fanfics for tiny fandoms.
I can think of a few fandoms and ships where I've literally only ever been able to find one, or two, fics -- and I cherish those like gold! Tbh I think the unsung heroes of fandom (well, maybe -- I've definitely seen some posts in praise of them on tumblr) are the people who have like 150+ works on ao3 and have written one really lovely fic in like a bajillion different niche fandoms. We owe them so much. Genuinely, no lie, that writer is who I aspire to be one day. If you are that writer, thank you. I'm handing you a hot drink of your choice.
(And on the other end of the range, there's the one really long MacGyver fic that was posted on InsaneJournal, of all the places, literally 20+ years ago (and I live in fear of the day the whole platform goes down) and had such a good character reveal moment that it literally shaped my relationship with the trope. Absolute king shit. I still think about it regularly.)
